This last year I've been thinking a lot about my journey as a whole. I sometimes get caught up in the part of my journey that involves walking out of homosexuality and I make the mistake to assume that's the sum of my journey when in truth, it is not. My journey is much more then just walking out of homosexuality, it is walking into the life that God has called me into and discovering who it is that God created me to be. Part of that means that I will journey with God to discovery what God intended for sexuality and what God intended for me as His daughter in Christ. When I live my life with destiny and purpose then I find there is so much more to life then reckoning with my particular brokenness. Certainly there had been a season of rising up from the ashes, a season of mourning, a season of true heart of repentance that is ongoing still but even the heart of repentance has various of seasons within that. I heard it said that too much navel gazing can be unhealthy. I think the navel gazing in and of itself out of season of what God is doing can become a stumbling block for God to fulfill the purposes He has for us. Tell me, are we really living life to the full when we're too busy looking ourselves and the mess we have found ourselves in? Surely there is more to life then that. Surely there is more to life then being covered in ashes and telling God how sorry we are for the mess that we've created and crying because we're having to face the consequences of poor choices made in the past. There is certainly more to life that. Jesus said, "I have come that they might have life and life abundant," To me that tells me there comes a time where I can step away from mourning and grieving, to step away from feeling sorry about myself and to step into the changed life and blessing the Father waits to bestow on the child of His that once was lost but now found, who once was blind but now see's, and who once had been dead but has been made alive in Christ.
When God has called me into a much fuller life then I miss out when I just reflect on my brokenness and not enough looking forward. God has not called us into a lesser life but a fuller life and if what we're doing is not leading us into a fuller life then we might have to ask is somewhere on the journey we're missing something or not seeing the full picture or perhaps not seeing the journey through the right lens. I have to look at my brokenness in light of the cross of Christ but I look at my future in light of Christ's resurrection. I believe there is a great deal of Christians who will see the scripture through the lens of their passions and core beliefs instead of allowing for the scripture to form our passions and core beliefs. Many will see through the lens of their passion of Social Justice and make the gospel and God's Kingdom only about feeding the poor and serving people when really holiness is just as important in fact apart of Social Justice. How we live our lives before God and in community with others is a two fold truth that is not easily walked out and I find that people will gravitate towards one or the other. Certainly, if I gravitate towards one more then the other or if I make an error in judgment with choices made I hope that I err on the side of grace. I would rather be one to extend too much grace then to become like one of the pharisee's who's been deceived by their own self righteousness. At the same time I am seeing an increasing important for truth to be heard and for holiness to be the standard for which we live our lives.
I am much more then my brokenness. I am much more then being same sex attracted. People label me all kinds of things. Sometimes I have to correct people when they call me gay or ex-gay. I usually say, I'm not gay but Lord knows I'm not straight either but I'm not even ex-gay. I am Sarah, I am a daughter of the most High God, I have been chosen with a purpose and destiny for my life. I am a woman created in God's Image. I live my life as a daughter and in a royal priesthood of believers. In Christ there is life and liberty and the forgiveness of sins. While my journey can be likened to this adventure into uncharted territory it is also this life about conquering land, being a victor in Christ, and taking hold of all that God has for me. My life is not my own yet when I sacrifice everything I become the one who gains so much more then what I ever sacrificed in return. I don't want to live my life with the glass half empty when the glass is actually more than full but overflowing with all of God's goodness and blessings poured out in Christ. I don't want to live my life as though Jesus is still hanging on the cross when in fact, Christ is risen! I don't know about you but when I ponder this I can't help but to consider the same Spirit that raised Christ from the dead is the same Spirit in me and is at work in me and will continue to be at work in me until the day of Christ Jesus... THAT I can be assured of.
Christ is risen... He's risen indeed!
When God has called me into a much fuller life then I miss out when I just reflect on my brokenness and not enough looking forward. God has not called us into a lesser life but a fuller life and if what we're doing is not leading us into a fuller life then we might have to ask is somewhere on the journey we're missing something or not seeing the full picture or perhaps not seeing the journey through the right lens. I have to look at my brokenness in light of the cross of Christ but I look at my future in light of Christ's resurrection. I believe there is a great deal of Christians who will see the scripture through the lens of their passions and core beliefs instead of allowing for the scripture to form our passions and core beliefs. Many will see through the lens of their passion of Social Justice and make the gospel and God's Kingdom only about feeding the poor and serving people when really holiness is just as important in fact apart of Social Justice. How we live our lives before God and in community with others is a two fold truth that is not easily walked out and I find that people will gravitate towards one or the other. Certainly, if I gravitate towards one more then the other or if I make an error in judgment with choices made I hope that I err on the side of grace. I would rather be one to extend too much grace then to become like one of the pharisee's who's been deceived by their own self righteousness. At the same time I am seeing an increasing important for truth to be heard and for holiness to be the standard for which we live our lives.
I am much more then my brokenness. I am much more then being same sex attracted. People label me all kinds of things. Sometimes I have to correct people when they call me gay or ex-gay. I usually say, I'm not gay but Lord knows I'm not straight either but I'm not even ex-gay. I am Sarah, I am a daughter of the most High God, I have been chosen with a purpose and destiny for my life. I am a woman created in God's Image. I live my life as a daughter and in a royal priesthood of believers. In Christ there is life and liberty and the forgiveness of sins. While my journey can be likened to this adventure into uncharted territory it is also this life about conquering land, being a victor in Christ, and taking hold of all that God has for me. My life is not my own yet when I sacrifice everything I become the one who gains so much more then what I ever sacrificed in return. I don't want to live my life with the glass half empty when the glass is actually more than full but overflowing with all of God's goodness and blessings poured out in Christ. I don't want to live my life as though Jesus is still hanging on the cross when in fact, Christ is risen! I don't know about you but when I ponder this I can't help but to consider the same Spirit that raised Christ from the dead is the same Spirit in me and is at work in me and will continue to be at work in me until the day of Christ Jesus... THAT I can be assured of.
Christ is risen... He's risen indeed!
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