Land of Anointing

It seems to me that building relationship and friendship are the most difficult thing to do! I hear some people say to have a good friend you need to be a good friend first... well, what happens when you're the good friend first and most people around either don't respond or are just satisfied with being a good friend Sunday morning or at the Wednesday night bible study? I'm searching for something more then just being friendly with people Sunday morning and friendly with people who are apart of my bible study group. I'm looking for friendship.

I'm also looking for a church where I feel I can gel with and actually be apart of the community and not just Sunday mornings either! I'm also looking for a church where those in leadership are not afraid of the issues that affect me like Same-sex Attraction(SSA) and Gender Identity issues. If you're a Pastor and don't understand these issues then you can't be my Pastor, how can one lead me through issues they don't understand themselves? I think there are some real good church's out there but I find for the most part few church's in my area actually respond to the homosexual issue in healthy ways that don't compromise biblical truth. I find few Pastors actually want to look into a ministry that has mentored and discipled me through healing and into relational & sexual wholeness. My experience for the most part has not been good although there are a few good people, but just a small handful. Although, even those few good people have not shared with me an interest to be friends with me outside of church Sunday mornings or bible study groups. Alright, so this has placed before me challenges as I work through life issues and my faith.

The message of the gospel is redemption and reconciliation. What God intends to do is bring wholeness and healing to the church which is so obviously needed in the church's in my area. I'm not giving up on the church!

When I sat in my small group back in 2005 working through the pain and rejection I faced by many in the church my small group leader asked me this question. She said...

"Can you allow for the church to be in the same process as you are in?"

That's a very good question and I ask myself that question every time somebody in the church disappoints me. It's about extending grace and forgiveness to those who hurt us even if those who hurt us in the midst of their self-righteous can't see their response and behavior towards me as being just as sinful. I extend the same grace and forgiveness that I'd like to have extended towards me. And I pray dear God that I never forget where it is that I've come from lest I become self-righteous myself.

So, I ventured off on this journey not exactly knowing what is in store. To be honest, I think the most exciting part of my faith/healing journey is the fact that I really don't know where God is taking me. I don't know what my future will look like and I don't know what to expect as far as just how much healing will come. All I know is that when I look at all that God has done and how much healing and change I've already experienced it does blow my mind!

I recently fired off this e-mail to voice this frustration I have with the church I currently attend. In all honesty it's not the church really but rather the question whether or not that's the church I'm suppose to be apart of and perhaps the greatest part of this frustration is basically being apart of a church that has a different vision then what I have. Having a different vision isn't necessarily a bad thing. I would like to bless the vision that this church has.... but it's a vision that I don't share. About a year ago I began attending this church and after a year I'm seeing more clearly that this isn't a church for me and I have many reasons for it. I think, I have some healthy criticisms of this church but I'm believing the church will be blessed in their vision and outreach in the church's community. Anyways.... the lady I fired off my e-mail to in the midst of my feelings of frustration with my church she sends me this devotional. It has more to do with with how exhausting it is when God keeps moving you from one place to another and leading you in a direction you're not sure about... kind of like Abram when God calls him to pack up everything and keep moving around from one place to the next. She wrote the following in the e-mail ....

Remember.... Abram didn't know where he was going either
in the moment...

This devotion is from Shirley Weaver Ministries that I'd like to post on my blog here...check out her website http://www.acleartrumpet.org/

There is a land for each individual--a strategic place where the anointing of
the Lord in the life of the individual rings more true, is more connected, finds
greatest expression and apart from which, does not flourish to it's maximum.
This is why Abraham kept moving. Our sensitivity to discern the land of our
anointing is fine-tuned with time, much in the same way it was
with
Abraham. Some are in the right field but the wrong department. For some the
region is correct but not the community, or part of town. And for others,
borders of the familiar corral destiny--for these reluctant souls, nothing short
of dynamite will move them to the placement the Lord has for them! A correct
worldview can change that. Our call to a correct worldview,
and therefore
into the mainstream is apparent. It is time to go there; it is time to go to the
place He tells you. No matter the success elsewhere, success in the appointed
place is greater: Now the Lord said to Abram, Get thee out of they country,
and from thy kindred, and from thy fathers house. Unto a land that I will show
thee. (Genesis 12:1)

Canadian Politics in Crisis

I wanted to post a link but for whatever reason I wasn't allowed to.

"the URL contains illegal character" what?

I'll try posting the ling another way....

www.cbc.ca/world/story/2008/12/03/f-rfa-macdonald.html

Here is a blog that would be of interest for any American readers because it in my opinion effectively communicates the difference between Canadian and American Politics. I think my American Neighbours will enjoy keeping track of what's happening here in Canada because seriously, it may even be more entertaining then American Politics.

I find this interesting...

We had our elections about a couple of weeks before the States had theirs and all throughout the Canadian elections we Canadians were more interested in the Presidential Campaign. At the same time I think it was ridiculous for PM Stephen Harper to call an election. I think he did this to himself. Canadians are completely exhausted with elections and honestly, none of us want to go through another election. Simply because we know that another election will take place in just 2 years from now. Don't you think that's a little crazy?

Canadian Politics

Canadian Politics in Crisis! I've never seen this in Canadian Politics ever. As I'm in the process of learning the difference between Canadian and American Politics I have been voicing my feelings and frustrations. I've been called "a vile woman" a "racists" who knows nothing about Politics. Yet, I have this criticism to say. The person who keeps up the name calling has yet to bring me any concrete logical reasons to be against the Coalition. The more I learn about the Coalition and why the Coalition has formed. The more I learn about Stephen Harper and the choices that he has been making, the more I'm coming into agreement with the Coalition.

I stated that I didn't like the choices that Harper has been making.

1. He wanted to quietly strip away the rights of Public Service Workers to vote.

2. He also wanted to pass a law to cut all public financing to Political Parties

3. Tax the Canadian People for no valid reason really, as you can see in this blog article I have
posted along with my comments here.

I have heard it said that Harper is becoming more and more like a Dictator. I don't like this, I don't like the thought of having a dictator for a Prime Minister. What gets me is that Harper dug for himself this ditch and decides to act like he's got a Majority Government when in fact he doesn't. He's got a Minority Government. From my understanding Prime Minister Harper has tried to flex muscles he doesn't have. He acted as though he has all the power when in fact he does not.